for your b day.........

and.....my last day in that room.....

and....... another morning.....

and....... the next day .....

and later.... after dawn....

this morning..... right before dawn....

this is what i opened my eye to this morning!
across from my bed, the little flowers in perfect light 
right before dawn
reminding of the walk i had yesterday.

it brought a smile to my face.

Im thinking....
if
mornings always come
then there is a promise
for unknowns yet to come

then
I should trust the universe
that there is always light
that darkness can become bright

so
there is always a chance
to start again
to learn to walk on earth
like a beginner
to wander and to trust.

i make a wish now
to be a beginner every single morning
and not take anything for granted

amen

just when.......

   ....... the caterpillar thought the world is over, it became a butterfly!

three months of living far.......

three months and I’m still standing here
three months and am I getting better?
three months and I still am not

three months and it’s still harder now

three months I’ve been living far
three months I’ve been far with my body but not heart

three months and I’m still breathing heavy in tears when i think of you
three months and I still remember it in disbelief
three months and I wake up wishing it never happened

dear ....how far did you go?

A place like no others......

Between the sky and sea
there is a magical place
that is almost impossible to describe

where.....

peace lives lively

nature hugs you loudly
and colors dance brightly

where......
days starts in beautiful mist & late
the birds chirp and whistle on bushes

and chickens have an island

where cats are adored .....

in black, golden and gray

where ...
stories have spirit
dreams become real

possibilities seem endless

and masks have a kingdom

where...

mistletoe grow on trees

walnuts are cracked under trees

and chestnuts are for free

there is this magical place

that is not far away

where you get lost in wanderlust

Cassaet....

I'm burning with light

that I found you, felt you, smelled you

and was touched by the kindness of your creators!

October 12-24, 20014

Moncorniel-Grazan = Cassaet

sat oct 4 2014

sat oct 4 2014

overflown with nostalgia......

Medical Definition of Nostalgia: A wistful or excessively sentimental sometimes 
abnormal yearning for return to or of some past period or irrecoverable condition.

[photos from here]

nothing belongs to me
there is nothing mine in me

i dont belong to here or anywhere
nothing i own is mine

my emotions are not mine
my mind is from another life
the soul is passing through

when i let go of clinging mind

when i let go of my ever moving emotions

all things become just as they are
in their true essence 

nothing stays or goes

i become free
  

 

all I see is a blue wall

an ocean of blue flowers

I say dear blue dear blue...

catch my every tear

save me from my doubts

swallow me up in blue

help me touch the clouds 

as I breath in what's true

the blue says...
the words will come on cue
if you let them be true

I got lost in a blue Monday
I got lost in the thought of ....
why did she have to go away?

come back blue sky 
put a smile on my face  

come back blue sky.

wish i could make a healing bouquet for you.....

photo from here